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"Careful what you wish, you'll never get it."

There's so many things I wish I had. For instance, I wish I had not taken back so many words. I wish I had not done all the things I did to hurt.

I wish I could take a break. A break from my life. A break from what I am, what I'm trying to be and what I'm being turned into, what everybody else expects from me.

I'd like to - no, I want to fall in love. In true, deep love, requited and with no strings attached.

I want to see the mountains again. I want to go there. With my friends.

Friends.

Yeah, right. They're not here. I've got new friends. We're all in the same shitstorm, but it's just totally different. Damn, I wish I had the only true friend I have left here.

I wish I could spend the time differently. Instead, her face stares at me from the plastic screen again, grinning, with her blue eyes piercing me like needles, as if taking the mickey on me. 'Look, the jester got what he asked for!' It's already been ages since I felt anything for her, but oh god, I want to hold her, so much, right now...

Heaven, where is my angel? I need her holding me, tonight... Whoever she turns out to be.
Last night I just wrote down all the things that came to my mind.
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darkflare666's avatar
wow dude... you seem pretty bummed out at the moment, is there anything i can do to help?